Today it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Our babies started school today. 20 hours away. Just like last year. Just like the year before that. And just like the year before that. This year was different though. This year hit me so much harder than any of the previous years. This year I could not keep my shhh together for the life of me. I cried when we couldn’t talk to them before school. I cried when I got pictures of them with their backpacks on. I cried on my way to work. I cried on my lunch break. I could have literally crawled in my bed and had a pity-party all day long.
I don’t know what brought this on. It could have been that our amazing summer was two weeks shorter than in the past. Maybe it was that we are more aware of some school issues that have made Noah less than thrilled about this school year. The fact that this is our baby girl, Farrah’s first year of Kindergarten could also be a big reason behind my tears.
Noah was pretty much school age when I came into the picture, but I’ve been with Farrah since diapers.
Sometimes it helps to let the feelings out. Sometimes it helps to know you aren’t alone. Stepmama, if you need someone to vent to, I’m here. Stepmama, if you need to know you aren’t alone, this is for you.
xo – jessicanicole.